2025 -> 2026

January 14, 2026

2025 is a year I’m happy to bid a non-found farewell. I may be the eternal optimist but I have faith 2026 will be a most excellent as Bill and Ted would say year.

2025

Why was 2025 a bad year you ask; I will enlighten you.

I woke one morning and could not see out of my right eye. I was not blind but there was a black spot covering 2/3 of my vision. What I could see out of the remaining 1/3 was severely warped making the eye unusable. I had to close my right eye before I could see correctly out of my left eye. Turns out I have macular degeneration. A regime of shots in the eye has improved my eyesight greatly but the Retina doctor tells the right eye will never be normal.

In 2025 we became very familiar with the Grapevine ER and Hospital. I took Gwen to the ER eight times this year ranging from the catheter blocked, to food stuck in her vocal cords, to could not wake her.

Gwen was hospitalized four times in 2025. The first visit was because they had to operate to remove the food from her vocal chords. Yes, they were being especially cautious as to not damage the vocal cords. The last time because she would not wake up. They finally determined it was because she had a bad reaction to one of her prescriptions even though she had been taking it for three years.

Sandwiched between the other medical events Gwen had a procedure to install a suprapubic catheter in an attempt to stop her malignant UTI. She continues to have them but not as frequently.

That was our 2025. Because of Gwen’s advanced PSP she is homebound and only left home for medical appointments, ER visits, and Hospital stays except for a couple visits to our youngest daughter’s home for family events. I’m out and about to buy groceries, and my medical appointments which are thankfully few and far between except for the Retina Doctor.


2026

I’m determined 2026 will be better.

As for myself, As 2026 rolled in I weighed 230.5, am pre-diabetic, out of shape, and trying to quit drinking wine at night. My intention this year is to live a healthier lifestyle.

For Gwen,We will slow the PSP progression and attempt to keep her out of the ER and Hospital!

Gor ditt basta (Do your best)


My favorite C&W Tunes

September 20, 2025

My favorite C&W tunes

Do thoughts ever pop into your head for no apparent reason? Happens to me from time to time. This morning I wondered for no apparent reason “What is my favorite Country and Western song?” I opened my laptop and started jotting down the first few songs that came to mind. Here’s the result:

  • Amarillo by Morning
  • 16th Avenue
  • Your the Reason God Made Oklahoma
  • The Perfect C&W Song
  • Good Ole Boys Like Me
  • Wagon Wheel
  • I’m so Lonesome I Could Cry
  • He Stopped Loving Her Today
  • I Fall to Pieces
  • Ruby’s two sad daughters
  • Last Date

After thoughts

  • 10 did not do 10 on purpose therefore I added another to make the list the not 10 list
  • I had not thought of a couple of the songs in years. Last Date and I Fall to Pieces
  • They reflect my age as none of them are recent. The oldest is 1949’s I’m So Lonesome I Could Cry. The newest is “Ruby’s Two Sad Daughters” in 2000 by pat Green and the author, Walt Wilkins.

2024 Book Review

December 26, 2024

Over the years

I’ve always been a book reader since I was a young lad. I started reading probably more out of boredom than. For any other reason. I was maybe 4 or 5 when I burnt my leg in a trash fire on the farm. For months I was confined to laying on the sofa. Today I would have been watching TV the entire convalescent period but this was before TV; therefore I read books and listened to the radio.

I’m an eclectic reader. I’ve read everything from History to Gardening to Science Fiction to Productivity to Computer Science.

Now to what I read in 2024

2024

Looking back at this year I read a mixed bag including fantasy, productivity, and history – 28 books in all. I read a mix of physical and digital books this year although most were digital on a Kindle. Near the end of the year I started listening to books. For those of you who like lists I’ve included the list of the 2024 books at the end of this post.

My favorite book this year was a mixture of science and history: American Prometheus: The Triumph and Tragedy of J. Robert Oppenheimer by Kai Bird and Martin Sherwin. The book served as inspiration for Christopher Nolan’s 2023 biographical film Oppenheimer, starring Cillian Murphy as the theoretical physicist. (Wikipedia). I did not see the movie but hearing about it sparked my interest in the book.

I had wanted to read 12 non-fiction books this year which I did as a form of self-improvement and in the spirit of the mantra “Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever.” – Mahatma Gandhi.

I also read the last part of the Wheel of Time book series – 9 of the 14 book series. I started the series in mid-2023. I’m the caregiver for my wife who has PSP and therefore am mostly homebound. Therefore there are great portions of the day where I can either read, watch TV, play games, or spend time on the computer. It’s a Fantasy series where the journey is the best part, not the goal. I was underwhelmed by the ending. Would I read the 11,898 page series again – Yes!

Lastly, I tried audio books this year. My take away to date is don’t listen to books you need to pay attention to. At least for me my mind wanders sometimes. That’s not a problem if I’m reading a physical book. But not with an audio book. I find my self hitting the 30 second rewind button a few times. Will I continue to listen to audio books? I believe so but not books like Nexus, one of the couple books I listened to instead of reading. AS an aside the reason I chose that book was the title. In my chosen profession the word was often overused and used incorrectly. I will leave it as an exercise for the reader to google the meaning of Nexus. This book’s author used the word in a more correct manner than it’s often used.

Next year (2025)

I intend to read a mixture of pleasure (Science Fiction and Mysteries) and self improvement books – Learn Forever. I don’t have a set number of books in the self improvement category but here’s my draft list which will change as time goes on:

I already have 5 physical books on the list:

  1. GEB – Reread every year. I am going to read it every year at least until I understand it.
  2. Lord of the Rings – Reread -Fantasy but the book in that genre by which all others are measured
  3. The Light Eaters by Zoe Schlanger – Plant Kingdome
  4. Einstein in Kafkaland by Ken Krimstein – Graphic novel – branching out to graphic novels this year – A year in Prague when Einstein became Einstein and Kafka became Kafka
  5. Big Jim and the White Boy by Marcus Kwame Anderson, David F. Walker – Graphic novel – The retelling of The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn

    Other Candidate books

  • The Ministry of Time by Kaliane Bradley – Science Fiction — Sounds like a winner — something different
  • The Comfort Crisis by Michael Easter — Cal Newport interview. Sounds very interesting
  • The Burning Earth by Sunil Amrith — A New Yorker best book –how we destroyed nature (my words)
  • Every Valley by Charles King– Handel’s messiah and the troubled times that caused it
  • The Cottage Garden by Claus Dalby – lots of photos of cottage gardens
  • Calypso by Oliver K Languid – Space opera I think
  • Slow Productivity by Cal Newport – as the name implies
  • A Brief History of Time by Stephen Hawking – like GEB I continue to read this book until I understand it. However, I think I’m closer to an understanding than with GEB
  • The Sabbath (FSG Classics) by Abraham Joshua Heschel – an old book a the name implies

Books read in 2024:

  • Lord of Chaos by Robert Jordon – One of the Wheel of Time series
  • Six Easy Pieces by Richard Feynman – Six easy science concepts written for the layman by Nobel Prize winner and one of the Atomic Bomb creators along with Robert Oppenheimer
  • Discipline is Destiny by Ryan Holiday – Book on one of the from Stoic Principles – Discipline
  • *A Crown of Sword * by Robert Jordan
  • Winter Storm by Robert Jordan
  • The Path of Daggers by Robert Jordan
  • Budapest by Victor Sebestyen – History of Budapest by a native
  • The History of Almost Everything by Bill Bryson – Not as good as I thought – would not recommend
  • Where Good Ideas Come From by Steve Johnson – took a 10 page explanation and turned it into a boring book
  • Tao te Ching by Stephen Mitchell – central to Taoism
  • American Prometheus by Kai Bird – Book of the year for me
  • The Gathering Storm by Robert Jordan
  • Killing Moon by Jo Nesbo – Norwegian Thriller – the latest in the series of Detective Harry Hole
  • Towers of Midnight by Robert Jordan
  • Lords of Uncreation by Adiran Tchaikovsky – Space Opera – very good – last book in the three book series
  • Knife of Dreams Robert Jordan
  • A World Lit Only By Fire by William Manchester – coming out of the dark ages – section on Martin Luther is the best I’ve read on him
  • Eight Bears by Gloria Dickie – Eight bear species in the World
  • The Bhagavad Gita by Eknath Easwaran – One of the tenets of Hinduism
  • Overboard by Sara Paretsky – Latest book in female Chicago detective series – loved the series in part because it’s based in Chicago where I lived for three years
  • Meditations by Marcus Aurelius – the high lord of stoicism
  • Memory of Light by Robert Jordan
  • New Spring by Robert Jordan
  • The Obstacle is the Way by Ryan Holiday – Productivity book about overcoming obstacles
  • In a Sunburned Country by Bill Bryson – traveling around Australia – good book
  • To Overthrow the World: The Rise and Fall and Rise of Communism by Sean McMeekin – mostly summary of all his previous books. Read them instead
  • Braiding Sweetgrass by Robin Wall Kimmerer – Came in 2nd as my book of the year – combination Indian lore, environmentalism, nature book
  • On Basilisk Station by David Weber – Space Opera – the kind of Science Fiction I enjoy
  • Nexus by Yuval Noah Harari – Could have been subtitled the History of Information – Audio book

Gwen’s Hospital Event

November 16, 2024

Last Saturday, November 9, around 5:30PM Gwen had suddenly had trouble breathing and her chest hurt. I could tell she was not in immediate danger because she could talk loudly. However she appeared pretty distressed. Therefore I asked her is she wanted to go to the ER. She replied YES without hesitation.

We went to the Baylor, Scott, and White (BSW) Grapevine ER.  They did numerous tests: x-ray, CT Scan, Blood Test, etc. They tried hard but did not find any anomalies with her heart which was the most likely problem because of symptoms. They finally decided to admit her to the Hospital where more tests could be run.

We checked into the hospital around Midnight.  We did not get much, if any, sleep that first night. Between checking Gwen in and more tests they kept us pretty busy all night. Both the preliminary blood and urine tests showed excess white cells. Based on that they sent both off for culture testing and decided to keep us until the cultures “blossomed”.

Sunday morning one of the doctors told us we would probably have to stay until Wednesday because the culture takes that long and with Gwen’s immune problems they were afraid she might develop sepsis.

The heart search continued into Monday with more tests including an ultrasound. Tuesday morning we had a conference with the cardiologist who asked if we wanted to treat the heart condition aggressively (angiograms, open heart surgery, etc.) or with medication. We opted with medication.

That left just waiting for the “culture”. Waiting in the hospital is pretty boring. They would not let me get Gwen out of the bed because of her PSP condition. The TV is forgettable, The food is mediocre. However the staff are for the most part very good.

Tuesday afternoon about 4:30PM we were surprised with the nurse asking us if we wanted to go home Tuesday evening. The “culture” had blossomed. The bacteria culprit had been identified. Therefore we could go home with yet another prescription after they gave her an injection of the medication.

We said Yes, send us home.

Postscript: Wednesday morning Gwen had a massive BM. I gave her a shower to clean her off. I’m not sure what happened but she slipped off the shower chair twice onto the floor. Lesson learned: I’m not giving her anymore showers by myself.

It’s now Saturday afternoon, November 16, and she is still recovering from the hospital stay catching up on her rest.


Five Favorite Albums

July 30, 2024

concert

I’ve seen several Greatest Albums of All Time and 100 Best Albums lists the last several days. They started me thinking “What are my favorite Albums?” After some thought here are my Five Favorites:

Marvin Gaye – What’s Going On

The Ghetto

Growing up if you lived in Illinois and could pick up Chicago Pop Music radio you were exposed to a great deal of Rhythm and Blues – Sam and Dave, Otis Redding, Wilson Picket, and of course Marvin Gaye who was always my favorite; partially because he had a cool name.

What’s Going On was released in 1971 after I left Chicago. By then we who survived the 60s were worn out and tired of protest, confrontation, riots, and prejudice. I was no exception. What’s Going On struck a chord with me. I still listen to the album quite a bit. It’s definitely on my 5 favorite list.

The album is a musical journey that combines soulful melodies with poignant lyrics reflecting the revolutionary 60s. With hits like What’s Going On, Inner City Blues, and Mercy Mercy Me (The Ecology), this album remains a timeless work of art that continues to resonate with listeners today.

On a sad note, the 44 year old Marvin’s life ended tragically when his father shot him during an argument.

Bob Dylan – Highway 61 Revisited

I purchased this album in 1965 before I went off to College in Chicago. I played the album over and over and over. It got to when Mom came in the house while the album was playing she would immediately shout: “turn that communist noise off this minute!”.

It was Bob’s break from folk music which at the time was one of the most popular genre’s and he was the king of folk music.

I had not listened to the album in probably 10 years but the other day I was reading the book Where Good Ideas Come From. The book mentioned Highway 61 and the Beach Boys Pet Sounds as two of the most influential albums of all times generating whole genres of new music.

The album begins with Like a Rolling Stone which was the most popular tune on the top 40, probably the only one from the album.

My favorites are probably Desolation Row and It Takes a Lot to Laugh, It Takes a Train to Cry.

It Takes a Lot… reminds me so much of the old Hank Williams song I’m So Lonesome I Could Cry it’s just plain eerie. Speaking of Hank Williams, he’s not spoken much of anymore even in the C&W arena but that man was positively a genius. Just google the list of his most popular songs someday.

Right now I can’t read too good
Don’t send me no more letters, no
Not unless you mail them
From Desolation Row

ends Desolation Row. In other words, leave me alone and go back to your friends where you belong…

Desolation Row was much more understandable when I was 17. Now I list listen to the lyrics with awe and love the 12 string guitar.

Beatles – Sgt. Pepper’s Lonely Hearts Club Band

What can I say about Sgt. Pepper’s Lonely Heart’s Club Band that has not been said already. It is the first popular concept album (1967). It, like Highway 61 spawned a new genre of music, Progressive Rock

I was living in Chicago attending DeVry Technical Institute studying electronics living with 5 other students. Between the 6 of us we played that album so many times in the condo I finally had to toss it and purchased another.

A Day In The Life is one of my if not most favorite songs of all time.

There are many, many, many stories about this album and the Beatles with LSD. If you’re curious Google can fill you in.

CCR -Cosmos Factory

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I really like Creedence Clearwater Revival’s (CCR) music, sometime know as swamp rock. This is my favorite album of theirs. Their extended version of I Heard It Through The Grapevine is a fitting end to the album and is my favorite from the album.

One item common to Cosmos Factory and the first three albums on this list is the music. I really like the music, not just the lyrics.

As a final thought what does this album have to do with the Cosmos Factory Website?

Linda Ronstadt – Heart Like a Wheel

I’m firmly convinced every male of my generation was secretly in love with Linda including me. After all these years I still listen to her often. She started with the Stone Ponies. The first time I heard her was with that group. The Condello’s and I were sitting in the General Dynamics F111 Factory parking lot waiting until we had to go to work listening to the top 40 when Different Drum came on. It’s funny how when hearing a song your mind calls up a perfect picture of where and when you first heard the sone. Different Drum is one of those songs for me. We must have spent many hours in that parking lot because Judy Collin’s Amazing Grace also reminds me of that parking lot. Someday I’m going to drive over there and see if the parking lot is still there.

On to the album, Heart Like a Wheel is her best album IMHO. Released in 1974 it was also her most popular. My favorite song from the album is Willin which is why the photo is a road.

I recently found out she has PSP which also afflicts my wife, Gwen, who is now home bound in a wheelchair. Of course this has brought me closer to Linda and her music. So much that before Gwen could no longer travel we had planned a holiday to her hometown Tucson to visit her roots.

The End

Anyway that’s my top 5 today. One thing they all have in common is my age. The earliest album on the list is 1965 while the most recent is 1974. It’s not that I don’t like older and newer music because I do. However there must be something special about the music from that stage of your life. For me at least, that is true.


Westlake Walking Trails

March 16, 2024

Westlake has some really great walking trails for wheelchairs although I’m sure that was their intention. We live in Trophy Club, next to Westlake but Trophy Club does not have anywhere near the trail system found in Westlake. Westlake trails are almost all paved trails.

Gwen because of her Progressive Supernuclear Palsy (PSP) is wheelchair bound but she still enjoys the outdoors (In the elder days most of our vacations were planned around hiking venture); therefore she still loves the outdoors. So far the Westlake trail system is our favorite.

While most of the Westlake trails follow streets, for example Dove Road, this hike winds through the bottom land next to a creek.

One minute you are in the wilderness, then you round a corner and are staring at a multi-million dollar estate. Patrick Homes has a place here but I’m sure this one is not it (Not large enough).

Here’s to Westlake for building a wonderful trail system that even allows wheelchair access.


Ever Day is a Gift

September 28, 2023

I heard Every Day is a Gift on Good Morning America this morning. It’s been whirling around my head all day.

A little background: My Wife has PSP which has confined her to a wheelchair. On top of that she can’t really use her arms or hands. Also, her speech is hard to understand especially when she is “antsy” as she would put it.

Needless to say I’m her caregiver which has completely changed my life as well. The past few days I’ve been feeling sorry for myself. But now I’m pretty upbeat about having another day to enjoy life.

In the future every morning when I wake up I’m going to recite at least the following:

  • Every Day is a Gift – Reese Whiterspoon on GMA
  • Stay Curious – Steve Jobs from Stanford graduation speech – Stay Hungry, Stay Foolish, Stay Curious

A Saturday Morning in the life of a care giver

August 19, 2023

Aug 19, 2023 at 1:43 PM: This was my day until 1:30 this afternoon.

  • Gwen up at 7:00
  • Fixed breakfast for both of us and ate
  • Prepared vitamins for Gwen and gave her vitamins
  • Exercised Gwen’s arms outside before the heat set in
  • Washed Gwen’s face and cleaned her teeth.
  • I took a shower and got dressed
  • Drove with Gwen to the Eataly in Northpark to buy bread. They have her favorite bread.
  • On the way home ordered Ice Tea and French fries for her at McDonald’s. It was 10:50 and they don’t server fires until 11:00. So we waited in the parking lot for her fries and then got in line to order them
  • Gave Gwen a shower
  • Shaved Gwen’s legs
  • It’s 1:30

This a typical day in the life of a care giver. I hate to be someone like her who needs this much attention in a nursing home.

I’m taking my first break of the day for a cup of coffee.

Then’s us make her lunch and do more exercises.


Social Media Fast Results

April 13, 2023

I’m pretty much done with social media fasting. I consider the fast over and I’ve settled into a routine that does not include any social media. During the fast I also quit the TV, Internet news services, the New York Times, and The Economist. There is nothing I can do about the news anyway and watching/reading/listening to it just upsets me. Instead I’m reading the local newspaper for about a half hour every day.

The previous posts were:

I can honestly say I only miss Instagram. I followed several friends and interesting authors on Instagram. It was a wonderful app. I could catch up in 5 minutes a day. Plus I love photography and that’s what Instagram was all about. Sadly it’s veered off course. Someday I may check it our again but today is not that day. For now I’m getting my photography fix on Flickr.

Well, that about wraps up my social media fast. The fast is over and I’ve transitioned into a no social media lifesstyle.


Austin Diagnosed with Perthes Disease

April 11, 2023

Apr 10, 2023: A Very bad day. Austin diagnosed with Perthes Disease..  Why Austin Lord? Why? We are taught there is a reason for everything but I can’t see the rationale. A good boy who lived for sports and he is now sidelined for a long, long time!

Perthes disease is a rare condition in which the ball-shaped head of the thighbone (femoral head) temporarily loses its blood supply. As a result, the head of the thighbone collapses, and the area becomes inflamed and irritated.

As the condition runs its course, the body will absorb the dead bone cells and replace them with new bone cells. The blood supply will eventually return and the femoral head will heal. But the shape of the femoral head will have changed and no longer move smoothly in the hip socket. If left untreated, Perthes disease can cause arthritis later on.

The long-term prognosis for children with Perthes is good in most cases. After 18 to 24 months of treatment, most children return to daily activities without major limitations.